Monday, February 18, 2013

Running Away

I hate to admit this even to myself but I do have a tendency of trying to escape from difficult situations in life. Whenever the situation becomes slightly difficult I start looking for a way out. I have done this innumberable times. As soon as I encounter the issue I convince myself that `I will deal with this later.' This is unlikely to happen...most of the time I reach a point where I no longer have the option of taking the decision. This is just a tactic to not having to take a decision. Unfortunately this has some advantages. I hardly ever get seriously tensed. I am able to get a good night's sleep because I have successfully managed to slot the problem in a compartment which does not require immediate action.

I must here point out that this is mostly in personally life...if I keep thinking whether or not to publish a story, I would never get anything published ever.

Even when I do take a decision, I have a tendency to reverse my decision (my friend says that the functioning of my mind is similar to that of Government of India because we both change our mind). People who are close to me have pointed this out to me. My daughter has learned to use this character trait to her advantage. Obviously it is a very negative trait and I totally realise this. But again this has advantages. Because of this 95% of the time I am able to let go of the grudges (5% waale suffer a lot I must say). This means that if I realise my mistake I will most of the time be ready to let go of the ego and change my mind. However, now I am making an effort to change this. I am consciously trying to take a decision at the earliest and then stand by it.  

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