It is that time of the year again. Don't know about you guys but the year practically flew for me. At the end of the year the predominant feeling for me is that of perpetual running...running to office; writing, interviewing, strategizing, thinking of new concepts to increase traffic etc during the day; running back to pick up daughter; dropping the daughter to her robotics class during the weekends and then picking her up again and so on.
So it is not surprising that a feeling of discomfort and displeasure with the present situation is becoming stronger with every passing day. I don't like so much running...in fact, it is not just me. I am yet to come across another woman who enjoys juggling home and work day after day, day after day, day after day...
Because of this I am sorely tired most of the time. I do feel that life is passing me by and all I am doing is running from one chore to another.
Here I must add that I do take a number of steps to stay connected with the daughter and family but sadly, it is never enough. I can recall a number of chuttis and initiatives undertaken to increase the time spent at home: 15-days for the Australia trip, two weeks of working from home, four days vacation in Barcelona, ten days chutti during the daughter's summer vacation etc.
But it is so, so, so difficult to not work. I have, of course, thought about it. In fact, if I am really honest, I think about it everyday on my way back home in the evening. It is an eternal dilemma that refuses to die down. Almost everybody knows that I had taken a break a few years back and didn't work full time (I was freelancing) for more than two years. Though I look back with nostalgia and miss the laid-back life, I did want to work. Did I mention dilemma earlier...
I didn't read as much as I should have during the year. Though I do proudly claim that I started reading Gita and Jaap Sahib and have finished reading Guru Gobind Singh's Zafarnama. Gita is having a huge impact on me and Zafarnama was a revelation. I didn't think I would enjoy either of them but surprisingly I am. Besides that I have read a few good books but that is probably the subject of another blog.
Surprisingly visits to doctor and hospital increased manifold this year and so on. I was also operated on (first for me and hopefully last). Hope the trend is not repeated in the coming year.
Let's see what 2014 has in store...
So it is not surprising that a feeling of discomfort and displeasure with the present situation is becoming stronger with every passing day. I don't like so much running...in fact, it is not just me. I am yet to come across another woman who enjoys juggling home and work day after day, day after day, day after day...
Because of this I am sorely tired most of the time. I do feel that life is passing me by and all I am doing is running from one chore to another.
Here I must add that I do take a number of steps to stay connected with the daughter and family but sadly, it is never enough. I can recall a number of chuttis and initiatives undertaken to increase the time spent at home: 15-days for the Australia trip, two weeks of working from home, four days vacation in Barcelona, ten days chutti during the daughter's summer vacation etc.
But it is so, so, so difficult to not work. I have, of course, thought about it. In fact, if I am really honest, I think about it everyday on my way back home in the evening. It is an eternal dilemma that refuses to die down. Almost everybody knows that I had taken a break a few years back and didn't work full time (I was freelancing) for more than two years. Though I look back with nostalgia and miss the laid-back life, I did want to work. Did I mention dilemma earlier...
I didn't read as much as I should have during the year. Though I do proudly claim that I started reading Gita and Jaap Sahib and have finished reading Guru Gobind Singh's Zafarnama. Gita is having a huge impact on me and Zafarnama was a revelation. I didn't think I would enjoy either of them but surprisingly I am. Besides that I have read a few good books but that is probably the subject of another blog.
Surprisingly visits to doctor and hospital increased manifold this year and so on. I was also operated on (first for me and hopefully last). Hope the trend is not repeated in the coming year.
Let's see what 2014 has in store...
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