I had Nirula's hot chocolate fudge yesterday evening. I had been wanting to have it for almost a week. I tried so hard to resist but in the end I only delayed the inevitable. I hogged the entire serving without sharing even a bit and felt slightly good (not guilty!) post the damage. But this blog is not about that.
For almost a month I have been feeling totally listless. If I could have my way I would sit at home the entire day stare at a blank wall and then wonder why I am feeling horrible by the end of the day. I almost drag myself to work; I don't feel like making an effort to talk to anybody; I tried reading a good book ('When Nietzsche Wept' by Irvin D Yalom ) but it did not make a difference; hell, I don't even feel like watching Grey's Anatomy, which is my favorite serial (btw, the husband feels that it is a depressing serial and it might be just contributing to my moroseness).
The worst part is that though I don't like this gloomy phase, I don't even want to make an effort to snap out of it. I only visited Gurudwara yesterday and had hot chocolate fudge in an effort to feel good. The latter had some impact but only for a short while.
Before you start wondering if I need a psych I will mention that all of this is the effect of medication and should be over by next week. Hopefully the next update would be a happy one :)
For almost a month I have been feeling totally listless. If I could have my way I would sit at home the entire day stare at a blank wall and then wonder why I am feeling horrible by the end of the day. I almost drag myself to work; I don't feel like making an effort to talk to anybody; I tried reading a good book ('When Nietzsche Wept' by Irvin D Yalom ) but it did not make a difference; hell, I don't even feel like watching Grey's Anatomy, which is my favorite serial (btw, the husband feels that it is a depressing serial and it might be just contributing to my moroseness).
The worst part is that though I don't like this gloomy phase, I don't even want to make an effort to snap out of it. I only visited Gurudwara yesterday and had hot chocolate fudge in an effort to feel good. The latter had some impact but only for a short while.
Before you start wondering if I need a psych I will mention that all of this is the effect of medication and should be over by next week. Hopefully the next update would be a happy one :)
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