I am extremely pensive off late...dont know what triggered it. Various things are on my mind. Right now I am watching Grey's Anatomy and thinking how I would want to spend my last day on earth (this is related to what the episode which is being telecast).
Truth be told, I just cannot think of the last day. Not right now at least. There is so much to do and it is difficult to believe that it can end in a spit second and i might not be here to pack my daughter's lunch box tomorrow morning; I might not be there to buy her favorite ice cream; that I might not be there to snuggle with my husband; to go for a shopping, bitching and drinking session with my sister; that I may not experience Bhutan, Paris, Venice and so on. Sigh! I am nowhere near nirvana yet and hope I never am. I hope and pray that I die without a warning or any notice. That way I don't have to think of it as my last day.
Even then I am intrigued by the question, what if you know it is your last day and have the liberty to decide what to do with it. In that case, what will I do? I will get up early and watch the sun rise while sipping coffee, give a long lecture to Khushi to live her life morally and ethically (she cannot escape this!!), say good byes to loved ones, eat rajma chawal (I am a Punju after all :)), inform all my virtual friends that my time has come and then wait for the death to arrive...
Truth be told, I just cannot think of the last day. Not right now at least. There is so much to do and it is difficult to believe that it can end in a spit second and i might not be here to pack my daughter's lunch box tomorrow morning; I might not be there to buy her favorite ice cream; that I might not be there to snuggle with my husband; to go for a shopping, bitching and drinking session with my sister; that I may not experience Bhutan, Paris, Venice and so on. Sigh! I am nowhere near nirvana yet and hope I never am. I hope and pray that I die without a warning or any notice. That way I don't have to think of it as my last day.
Even then I am intrigued by the question, what if you know it is your last day and have the liberty to decide what to do with it. In that case, what will I do? I will get up early and watch the sun rise while sipping coffee, give a long lecture to Khushi to live her life morally and ethically (she cannot escape this!!), say good byes to loved ones, eat rajma chawal (I am a Punju after all :)), inform all my virtual friends that my time has come and then wait for the death to arrive...
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Sorry forgot to mention the obituary. I have asked all my close friends to write my obituary once i am dead and gone. I have a thing for obituary. Hopefully one or two should comply :-P
Sorry again. I kept on thinking about this all through the day again and I realise I would be doing a lot of other things as well. I would like to finish off all the grudges or resentment I have. I would take out my anger against my father for not letting me go to any school trip and that dance party in college. Yeah, yeah it was years ago but so what. Then I would call up my college boyfriend and blast him for whatever. will try to get in touch with some friends with whom I have lost touch for no other reason but procastination. Will also go to Gurudwara and will probably apologise for not taking religion very seriously.
Last but not the least might also select the picture for obituary :P
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