Monotonous routine has finally had the desired effect. I am bored to death. Need somebody to wake me up. My career and personal life in the last decade or so has been characterized by constant movement. I started my career in Delhi and then stayed at Ludhiana, Bangalore, Hyderabad, Delhi, Pune and then back to Delhi. So I never really realised what boredom meant. Before I could even think of boredom I was getting ready to move to the next destination. But now I am in Delhi for the last four-to-five years and believe you me that now for the last 10 days or so I have started feeling boredom creeping in.
However, it must be said that I don't have much to complain. On all fronts I seem to be doing fine. Touch wood and all that. I think I need new dreams, new goals to fulfil. Or maybe I should go for self exploration journey to find out what more do I want from life. I have been feeling this for some time now. I dont know if it is only me but I seem to be drifting from one day to another without the bigger picture or goal in mind. The last time I felt like this was before I decided to take up journalism. I was lost for some time. I didnt know what I wanted to do with my life. However, haven't been in this state for the last 10-12 years.
Anyway, I feel I should do something to come out of this phase. Maybe read something motivational or go for a self exploration jouney (a la Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara). Life is full of possibilities and I wonder if I need to go beyond journalism now...is it time to think of new potential areas. This is one option. Second is that I might need to take up a new hobby. All my professional life and free time has mostly revolved around writing. My work obviously involves writing all the time and I find myself writing in my spare time as well. Maybe I need to do something else. But what is the question. Photography is definitely one option and now I also own Nikon D5100 so I can definitely pursue it. Need to think about this. For some reason I feel an urge to paint nowadays. I should be honest here. I have never really painted in my life (I am not counting the fabric painting classes I attended about 20-22 years back). But for some inexplicable reason, I do feel like painting. There are other options as well but I will need to decide soon.
However, it must be said that I don't have much to complain. On all fronts I seem to be doing fine. Touch wood and all that. I think I need new dreams, new goals to fulfil. Or maybe I should go for self exploration journey to find out what more do I want from life. I have been feeling this for some time now. I dont know if it is only me but I seem to be drifting from one day to another without the bigger picture or goal in mind. The last time I felt like this was before I decided to take up journalism. I was lost for some time. I didnt know what I wanted to do with my life. However, haven't been in this state for the last 10-12 years.
Anyway, I feel I should do something to come out of this phase. Maybe read something motivational or go for a self exploration jouney (a la Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara). Life is full of possibilities and I wonder if I need to go beyond journalism now...is it time to think of new potential areas. This is one option. Second is that I might need to take up a new hobby. All my professional life and free time has mostly revolved around writing. My work obviously involves writing all the time and I find myself writing in my spare time as well. Maybe I need to do something else. But what is the question. Photography is definitely one option and now I also own Nikon D5100 so I can definitely pursue it. Need to think about this. For some reason I feel an urge to paint nowadays. I should be honest here. I have never really painted in my life (I am not counting the fabric painting classes I attended about 20-22 years back). But for some inexplicable reason, I do feel like painting. There are other options as well but I will need to decide soon.
2 comments:
hello, I am really not suffocated...the circumstances are pretty good but I think I just need to innovate myself a bit. Maybe do something really different. serious thinking required...any help will be appreciated
write a book :)
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